A diary of me `` donovan

2007-08-30T03:11:00.000-07:00

today is a sick day ! damn sian, craps~ flu again hais... haha office today alot of interesting events happen! got both happy or sad, will not mention here, kinda sensitive stuffs =) if wanna noe, feel free to give me a call! hmm .. taking a 10 mins break to blog and go toilet, have to slog again =( working life is so sian, now only wait for the pay to come and i will be rich !

2007-08-29T01:23:00.000-07:00

DATELINE day! ahhahah, today we are discussing what donuts i get back from batam, buying for wanching and my friends( too many to be mention) ! ahah she told me she like "tira miss u" flavour, not only dat, there are lots of flavours dere!

http://www.jcodonuts.com/product.html

Take care all my friends! this sat will haf a bbq session with my company! ahhaha will be damn fun i suppose? =)

2007-08-27T02:05:00.001-07:00

Weee tmr wun be coming for work! haha got a date =) hmm .. gonna be a boring week ~ batam anyone? I will be gg dere to buy DONUTS ! heee

2007-08-26T07:55:00.000-07:00

cool... yihong is just the yihong =)

2007-08-25T07:59:00.001-07:00

I wan want to be more significant? is dat much?.. I just pray dat everything will goes fine, i will just stay ALONE and promise dat this wun happen again~ hais, who can i promise other den my blog? dun tink she will care too

2007-08-23T19:38:00.000-07:00

I am just speechless, why wouldn't someone like u care abit more?... i really hope

说不上为什么,我变得很主动,若爱上一个人什么都会值得去做.我想大声宣布对,你依依不舍,连隔壁邻居都猜到我现在的感受.河边的风在吹着头发飘动牵着你的手一阵莫名感动,我想带你回我的外婆家一起,看着日落一直到我们都睡着.我想就这样牵着你的手不放开爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀,我想带你骑单车我想和你看棒球,想这样没担忧唱着歌一直走.我想就这样牵着你的手不放开,爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害,你靠着我的肩膀你在我胸口睡着,像这样的生活我爱你你爱我.

2007-08-22T07:52:00.001-07:00

i am just jealous .

2007-08-22T02:37:00.000-07:00

damn pissed today, can't imagine the fact that....
arghs, dat's so fucking piss =( , nvm i wun care abt it , neither would i care to be the clown to keep running in front anymore. No intention of blaming, just feeling helpless and blog is the only place where i no need to act to be happy and can really say what my heart feels! Thanks fengyi for ytd nite chatting session and yumei too.
Care NO MORE! gers are so complicated creatures, for what treating them so nice afterall? I shall turn to gay soon =)

2007-08-20T04:55:00.000-07:00

Office politics sucks to the max!.. U may just get someone into trouble by just saying a wrong word? damn it! Dateline is approaching and our work is just like halfway done... dun really think can finish it, guess is time to pack the bag and leave.

I duno how other people can pronounce my name wrongly, donovan can pronounce to DO NO VAN! simply break the words up. Hais.... but is okie lar, at least i make the whole department laugh ~

Sat went dinner with someone to hilton hotel eat cheese cake, haha of coz the oreo cheese cake rox big time! Although i canot take cheese but eventually i did =) eventually my stomach got upset but however is worth it, if she knows i dun take cheese, i think she wun eat that too and eventually got to go other place and eat, my conclusion is the cheese cake there rocks, even stomach got upset, is worth it too. After that went to bbq celebrate wj and sy bday, alot of vomitting around haaaaaahhaaa....... is so funny seeing gers got drunk and they just take alot of rubbish, esp ym, we ask what she say what ~ ahah but we got our limit.

2007-08-19T07:22:00.000-07:00

hmm, today is a "liu lang and zi niu" day hahaa, its one of the festival in china. Today in china, all the couples will gather and propose to each other saying all the sweet stuffs and thingy to the each other, How sweet rite? aha Liu lang and zi niu is actually 2 lovers but becoz of celestial rules and they can't get together. The heaven emperor don't allow them to get tgt but becoz of their true love and he was moved by them and allow them to meet once a year. Therefore, every year this day in china, couples will get tgt and celebrate this festival.

Hmm, finally think thru, will be more understanding and be there for her everytime! good luck ~

2007-08-18T14:30:00.000-07:00

hais... tdy is quite a sad day for me,i just duno why thing become so complicated. I try to hide my sorrow and hope i manage to get thru her, dun wan her to worry abt this. In simple term, i just wanna to be the "shelter" for her, cheer her up when she is down, be there when she need me! Or maybe i am too lousy dat why she hesitate? She is a nice ger, a special ger. This question she ask me alot of time, but just why the one is her? Seriously, i did all my best to make things work everytime, making sure dat every date is a wonderful and memorable one coz i know she dun really have a gd memory. Currently, working hard while waiting. Actually i am quite drunk now when i typing this post, just feeling emo and wanna blog it out. Yihong is just simply nuts when it come to this particular type of ger, he really know nuts abt it! Effort, sincerity, courage, romantic all out but none seem to work? Maybe he just need to understand them more? perhaps ~ Thank yumei for the words, she enlightened me quite alot, maintaining the relationship is hard but i will try my best to haha coz she told me she expect quite alot? haha but i really dun care coz when u wan the ger u like to be happy, u just do everything for her`` so i will just wait for things to happen ^^v No worries for me, i will work towards the future and rdy to bear the upcoming ordeal that she will be posting for me

2007-08-17T02:09:00.000-07:00

Basically today is a damn nice day to slp lar, if not becoz of my supervisor not here, i sure wun come for work! hahahaha .. It's raining in the morning and it basically turn off me and make me feel like not coming to work, i hate rainy day.

To someone(1):
Don't need to get dejected over 1 paper, u still have few more to go, not confident of doing don't mean 100% fail.. Dun let a paper affects u where u still have few more to go! haha 4 more hours to go for the special event ? hahaha ****

Will be rotting at office at this moment till 9 plus for the event. Work as usual, is all about dateline? but dun care, it always like a guideline one, coz we always fail to meet dateline, if really follow the dateline, i think i would be sacked long ago, but no choice, no matter how much effort i put in, also have problem completing the assignment! why? dunno maybe is really that hard to work in a accounting department. Guess that teaching life will be more suitable for me? ahhaha i love to teach!

the fireworks is damn cool! how i wish 3g works? hahah or maybe u are there to watch it with me? i wished ~

2007-08-15T20:41:00.000-07:00

today is a happy day, work is finally more relax today!.. haha my very naggy and noisy supervisor went for batam for 2 days! woah , i am damn happy to hear the news!!!! of coz my 2.5k target is approaching .. heee

To someone(1):
take care ya.. don't think so much, i know ytd my words are not much of impact, but it's all up to u to decide, i don't really wanna influence ur thinking, follow ur heart. There is no such things as who cannot live without who, it's up to u who decide ur life.

To someone(2):
i know u dun like taking medicine and i know i am naggy but dun mind me, just abit worried for this someone here health. Good luck for ur accounting test tmr and stay happy, will be lookin for more jokes for ya =)

2007-08-14T20:23:00.001-07:00

Everyday is like a damn tired day for me, especially morning till evening - the period at work. Work is so damn boring, hais cannot imagine myself working until the age of 55 and get retire. Coffee and japanese tea are my sole motivation at work, these 2 product keep me alive at work! heee.. today will be a sunny day? hopefully and will be going to eat my fav economic rice at suntec later!! lunching soon ^^ btw suntec donut factory service sucks! ask for double choc, they give me double rasberry.. zzz

2007-08-12T05:31:00.000-07:00

woah sian, nowaday work is damn boring.. if not becoz of money, wun even got to go work. Luckily got zh and kennie, kennie damn joker, although he slack alot at work, haha but he can really make me laugh =) .. Next wk will be a more shag week, alot of accounts stuffs need to be done.

Ytd went overnite kbox with fy, wc, sy, cyn and alvin.. ahah was quite a fun kbox coz " bu neng shou de mi mi" is out and i can sing it ! and eat breakfast at hongkong cafe =) quite a disappointing day coz i can't get to go find zh and wish esther for her bday. Happy bday esther!!

Sep 17 Ns! hais.. will be learning driving as well as piano! =)

2007-07-31T10:01:00.000-07:00

hahas , i really dunno what to say at this moment. Really i can't imagine this day will come. JAY PLAY PIANO FOR ME and i sing HIS SONG!
http://www.xin.sg/article.php?category=81&article=7691

Really i dun tink i sing dat well coz i am damn afraid! All the fans come for jay and in the end, yihong is the one singing? it's like omg rite? Adding on to it, i have no rehearsal, typically nothing no help from the system, no background music, just piano unplugged! i keep drinking water before the start and keep perspiring. Ahah eventually at the end of everything, i got his ring and his limited edition single with his signature =) That was like every jay's fan dream to get lar! Seriously i really proud of myself, going up to the stage and sing with A SUPERSTAR like JAY, it was liek once in a lifetime to have someone like jay to played for u to sing.

I am sorry to " u know who i mean " . Thanks for encouraging me go sing on dat day, i know u are feel beri alone and u are damn hungry, the whole thing for drag for 2 hours. Coz i was busy with the reporters and jay's fans and we don't have peaceful moment although it's meant to be a date! i am REALLY SORRY. Everytime i gotta go up and look for u, i was being stop for some fans who wanna take the picture of the ring, hmm i promise one day i will sing on the stage for u =)

2007-06-08T06:05:00.000-07:00

hahah.. back again,

After the food session, we went for shopping. Unfortunately a downpour starts and we shop in the rain! haha .. we dash through the road and head to the shilin nite market. PS: taiwan traffic is damn dangerous, red light u will see cars dash across the traffic, don't think is safe to cross unless u see the car really stop, the drivers are very impatient.

Unfortunately, it's rain and we shop in the rain. Whole body are wet and worse still, i had a great war with cockroaches. omg, shilin there really quite dirty but i tell u the shop there is enough to own alot of place in singapore. Just sport shops is already more then 20 stalls. After several hours, we finally came to a conclusion that we need umbrella coz the rain is really damn big and we get umbrella. And we carry on shopping for a while and went back to hotel, time = 12+ and time to sleep.

2007-06-08T05:48:00.000-07:00

haha.. it was taiwan!!! the first thing that came to my mind when i alight from the plane.
Sueanne uncle come and fetch us and bring us to the hotel. Well the hotel is quite high class, omg got scv somemore but that does not stop us from going out. After we unpacked our laggage, we organise and we make our way to the "mrt" station - "xi men" , ya i 4get to mention about the hotel i stayed in, it's "chang jiang da fan dian" - it is located at xi men ding. Btw our hotel is in the mist of the shopping centre hahaha - shopping spree

We get our notes and started buying the "mrt" tickets. it cost about 1bucks SGD per ride. Something interesting about the train, all people queue for the ride politely and no one cut queue and spoil the procedure. Secondly, the train travel damn fast, it's really unlike our singapore mrt, the train there has no speed limitation. And we reach our destination - Shilin. We went there for dinner. The first dishes that we eat is "chicken chop" haha don't think is a simple dish, is damn rox! is bbq chicken on hotplate, omg the egg there is damn shoik, is white colour shell one. And we also try the chicken platter, is also sold in singapore shilin stall. of coz once u try the chicken platter here, i gaurentee u wouldn't go buy singapore shilin food anymore. And we have our dessert. The strawberry ice is the best dessert among all we tried. Is sweet and melt in the mouth like m&m. I will continue in my next post, stay tune =)

2007-05-08T00:17:00.000-07:00

hais... nowaday don't feel like working, really very tired, ytd work everyone nv turn up.. maybe i think just work on sat? haha where all my friends are working then maybe i would have the motivation? .. yea.. nowaday keep getting flu easily and friends out dere take care of urself, weather is not really good recently. Later going eat dinner with jason, heheheh.. nowaday getting lesser opportunities to chat with her, or maybe i don't really wanna go tok to her? maybe is the best solution/ or i should say alternatives. It should be happy for her, letting go is still the best solution for me =) yea.. i will be less emo from today onward, will focus on taking care of my friend =) finding new jobs soon =) see ya guys

2007-04-20T09:32:00.001-07:00

weE .. it's has been long time since i ever blog!.. i guess alot of friends out dere are kinda missing me? wondering how i am now? yeap i am damn fine.. been in love with donuts =) dOuBle cHoC!!! just for you guys info, i am working at raffles city basement 1, a jap restaurant! okay larrr.. the pay still all right, enuff for a single guy like me .. heeeez

Anyways taiwan trip tio postponed! damn fucking sian, but it's okie .. i haf saved enuff, so i can go anywhere !!! so guys out dere pls plan overseas trip and i will join u! also duno wad to blog about.. life is so boring, when life without goals, without motivation, what is the point of living? just like a body without his soul wandering around? Anyways going kbox tmr wif fy, zh, sy, wc, vic, xy and etc and sun nite wif zh, kh, wf, ps! hahaha weeEEE i gonna sing .. =) it's haf been damn long since i ever sing.. it's abt dere thanks to those who read

2007-04-08T10:34:00.001-07:00

Arghs.. Irritating/nasty/piss off/ not in the mood - ME! HO YI HONG

hais.. nowaday life is getting more and more hard to pass.. especially with people add on to my bad mood, yea i try to heck care but it seems dat i can't really let go? Regardless of where i also have problems. Yea i've changed, it's not the yihong who u can play with.. Now i've have become more sensitive, more easy get piss off, more fussy and more sucks but why i become liddat? it's GOD, it DESTINY, and maybe it's all FATED to be~ how i wish i am just like normal, the past me where i can smile as if the world collapse i also heck fcuk, how i wish i can show all my concern to my frens.. however now i tink i still need alot of peeps help~ and how i wish everything can be solve? but ... i just have no time for everything``

Having alot of late night supper with zh,jeff and jas =) yea maybe i see some ray of joy where i can really enjoy. Thanks Kh, Ken, wj, jj, ham, etc also, Thanks xue, jane for the concern, i will be fine and will take care of myself.. =) and feng, haha i noe tonite u are having a bad time, but dat's all i can say is dat there is alot of ppl even having alot of problems like u do, just take thing lightly, if u can't - be like me, go find ur gd frens ard and go out enjoy. And lastly thank my "gd" fren ( mahjong ) for keeping me company =)

2007-03-27T10:35:00.000-07:00

seriously i really cannot stands my working place.! today marks the end of zhan - as the cathay staff! =(

Can't u imagine where u work for the cathay for soon 1 year and the manager telling u dat he gonna gif the new staff more hours to train them so dat they can replace the old staff? can't he simply think dat who is the one who is working/extending the shift when he nid helps? Life sucks when ppl just take u for granted !

Today is another tired day where i am being fully make use ! seriously my job dun worth just 4.50, in fact they shld pay me more for wad i am doing, inventory; staff management; on job operation management; all management by just 4.50? TMD~ soon i will be getting another once she find a full time job and work lesser dere, or maybe i will be quitting too.. wad for staying ? hahas .. sianzation.. life is not about expecting ur return from wad u invest, and is the process of putting in the effort to make the whole process meaningful and enjoy ? =) dunno whether i am enjoying, bt definitely / hopefully she enjoyed too =)

2007-03-21T10:55:00.000-07:00

hahas.. love saint 2007 = yihong

haha i go buy the makansutra 2007 book and went around finding websites dat sell nice food, as i noe food is wad she is craving for =) wad i can do now is to ensure she gt nice food eat especially when she is working, so this sat i will go find powerful food again. Been doing research and finding frens for advice and enquiries on where gt nice food and of coz my makansutra bk. Of course, no matter how far and the queue how long i will definitely get the food for her.

Tink of asking her out again.. but sadly i was abit late, she agreed to meet her friends her, but however i will just stay at home and rest bahs.. not really intend to ask other people out.. haha i also need some rest, have been working and working. I tink i really lack of rest and now haf damn lots of ulcer in my mouth, sore throat, going to voiceless soon!

Bought my psp! ahha finally.. damn cool siah.. can see video, play game, listen mp3 etc!

There is alot of unpredictable things in life, u may think u are healthy.. but in fact u are not? why god created us? but leave us with all the possibilities of getting all those illness and problems? Can't they think spare a thought for the sufferer?.. where firstly they tink they are very healthy, but suddenly went for checkup and eventually the doc just tell them oh u haf this problem in ur body here n dere?.. how will u react? i duno?.. ask god?.. hais

2007-03-12T01:57:00.000-07:00

hehehe.. 59 hrs this wk =).. damn happy.. getting nearer to my 1k pay =) ... and promoting to cathay robort; hmm.. i wan my psp asap!.. actually last wk is a sucky wk for me, quarrel with managers, dispute with some "staff" and of course the workplace make fully use of me.. really till the extend dat human can't tolert =( but why? cause the management sux! but anyway lucky she was there at least i sense some motivation for work if not i tink i would haf be gone by now =)

Yesterday went supper wif zh,kh,ben and his gf.. went bukit timah eat teh chew porridge, damn exp siah, a fish, "3 layer meat", pig intestine, salty vege, minced pork and porridge and it cost 30 bucks! and why so expensive? and fengyi told me i was indeed eating the whole PIG, dat's why it's so ex! come on.. those who think is funny pls tag =)

hmm.. it's has been a bad weather, cause every day is a sunny.. pls take care guys and get well soon for wanching =) pls go see doc when u need to !

2007-03-05T05:33:00.000-08:00

不知道怎么表达自己，我想用华语会比较容易表达吧。感情这东西，有了会闲麻烦，少了又拼命想。为何我明明喜欢她但我必须要保持一段距离。可能这就是我的命吧，回想起九月十三日那一天我寄给她的第一个sms﹐但現在也只是一個美麗的回憶﹐我只能在她的周圍為她默默的等待。等待也許不是一個很好的辦法﹐但我也沒法忘記她。我不想讓我的朋友為我煩﹐只好狀一副若無起事的樣子對待。過度執着也與事無補。這是我個人的決定﹐沒辦法﹐忘記她我做不到﹐只好走一步看一步。能為她負出﹐看到她的一絲微笑﹐我已很滿足了。

2007-03-04T05:59:00.000-08:00

I am nt a supersititous person but dat nite however i went forward and sat on the table and choose few tarot cards and see how is my career path and love life like. For career - it's will be smooth for my every job and will be able to be appreciate and promote fast but however easy effort will lead to complacent, in the end will fall, so i must beware of backstabber at work. For work i really dun bother coz i nv think so far. But for Love - i am really damn happy. I choose a happiness card. The person told me, the ger i love eventually we will be tgt, he ask me to hold on, show my sincerity and this relationship will be a good one in the sense. And he sae most probably the ger had already had some interest in me. When i heard dat, the whole prom night is like a kind of celebration for me. Haha.. although is just some craps, but i really beri happy when i heard dat and i keep praying for good cards for the love part. heez it's like a consolation for me. However i still love her =) 5th mth

2007-03-04T05:56:00.000-08:00

My life sucks! tell me how to be happy.. Everyday haf to console myself, make myself look happy..

Work
A tough day again.. working like dog again, life is so hard at work. now i understand at work, there is beri hard to balance friends and work. Don't know what to say, u think for people at work, but who will really think for u?.. It's has been for mths and i keep quiet hoping for changes.. but eventually things don't seem to be fine, everyone is just so selfish~, from today onward, i will just carry my own task, work myself, fulfill all my responsibilities. Whoever wanna sae, i wun bother anymore.

Her
hais.. dunno wad to sae.. i really nid "wang qing shui" , somehow it's really take my a chaos to 4get a person? why? i always think i am someone who can take and let go easily bt why can't this time?.. hais.. i kinda surprise myself ... but right now i can only stand by her side, doing what i can really do and make sure she is being take care of, maybe she dun realise my existance, my doings, but seeing her happy at all times, nt being bullied. Things i do may not be dat significant, bits and bits and time to time i will show my concern and help her, care for her but somehow i can't be dat obvious, coz i nt sure what will happen when she noes. So i am content that she still treat me as fren, even looking her from her, doing and spend my every effort secretly is also a kinda of sensation for me. Maybe letting go will be good for her too?

2007-02-19T01:12:00.000-08:00

weee .. i am back after hibenating for so long ...

valentine day
I spend the day with my guy friends .. so surprise?... yeah.. unlike those gers who proclaim to be beri innocent and pure yet going out with other guys, actually no different, she went out with all alot of guys daily too. nahs.. out of my concern~ I don't do it for show, yea i haf couple of events but i think i should spend time with my friends, my last vday before i going into army, either i spend with the ger i love ( i suppose she will spend time with her friends instead ) or just spend alone with my buddy. However in the mist of all the events, i bought a bouquet of roses plus alot of bears decorated with it to someone special, hahas she is a nice fren of mine who i think i ought to give her sumthing, but eventually she still haf some frens who give her flowers too, but anyway i think i bought too much liao, hahas she sae is waste of money! after dat, went to cathay and watch ghost rider and protege with kaihong, both are nice to me, totally amazed by louis khoo! after movie, we go chomp chomp eat. haha each of us spend 14 bucks and we eat like siao, gt stingray,sotong,kangkong,hokkien mee etc then we go play mahjong at kaihong hse.

Today
happy new year to everyone hahas.. just came back from my aunt hse after mahjong, to me cny is just mahjong after mahjong .. and hees.. love my hong zhong, bai ban and fa chai=) my brothers! ..

2007-01-07T23:30:00.000-08:00

Weee.. i totally enjoyed my bday celebration to the fullest!
Firstly, my poly classmate celebrated for me. We went bugis eat steamboat. Specially thank weeliang,spencer,joyce,chaifong,wendy,woeichao.
Secondly thanks my cathay friends for the surprise bday celebration at alvin's hse, Thank ching,shing,vic,xy,alvin,fy,xuanyi,chongwei and cyn for the celebrations.
Thirdly, thank ching for the dinner =)
Forthly, thank sharon for the movie =)
Then, my parent and grandparents for the celebration on sun at my grandma hse.
Then, the cafe cartel dinner at Plaza Singapura with kenneth,dq,zh,kh, ben and his gf =)
Then, the chin huat buffet again with my cathay peeps + this time gt cheryl
And lastly all my bday wishes, thank esther naik, esther (cathay), esther( Unity), angelia, jiaji,vic,angela,woeichao,huiting,sok,xue,cuiyun,hanyang,hocksoon,yumei,weejian,andrea,chris,bifang,wenling,gk,jiayi,spencer,chaifong,kelvin,kaihong,wendy,joyce,my sis,erma,sheena foo,sheena koh,ben,ramli,melissa,xinzi,winnie,zh,jenyi,rio,keathong,shian,michelle and those i nv mention.. i try to mention all those who msg =)

2007-01-01T23:51:00.000-08:00

New year - new resolution! .. Find a suitable ger and settle down =) I WISHED! getting older nowaday.. 5 more days to my bday.. as wad victor .. he will gif me alot of surprise on sat =) i shall await for my bday surprises! .. TO EVERYONE OUT DERE!!! SURPRISES!!!! Thank in advance =)

2006-12-24T21:33:00.000-08:00

hha lazy to blog nowaday.. firstly let's wish fy(23/12) and sy(22/12) and hock soon ( 24/12) for the bday.. haha managed to get to one of the manager to let me join the cathay idol =) haha abit excited and lookin forward to it. This time really aiming to win coz i wan to win the money for my friends. Deathnote 2 is nice hahaha .. memerized by "L" damn smart guy how i wished i haf 1/2 of his intelligent?.. 24/12 i had a fun nite at changi beach with all my 12 brothers, kaihong/jeff/jason/ben/jiaji/ham/hocksoon/kervin/dq/kenneth/weijian(superstar)/etc . Of coz nt 4getting sheena/yumei/eliz/chuting/mag/jiajie/zandra/pris/mich/amanda/yinghan/chee/ and etc. Waterbomb and drinking session is always so fun. hahaha Vodka/chivas/ and the waterbomb all set trap and bluff each other into the trap!.. 23/12 & 22/12 , celebrate fy and sy bday .. haha watch movie/ eat cake / supper at newton .. .. okok i wish everyone who is reading my blog a very happy merrry xmasssss....

2006-12-19T10:47:00.000-08:00

zzzZ music industry is so dark! and fake, weejian sing so well bt got such a lousy marks whereas someone with a higher entertainment value gt higher marks but can't sing dat well.. hais.. as usual quite disappoint today, cannot get in to represent for cathay to sing for cathay idol competition =( as usual, the bigger "population" of the cathay dominates, it's not abt the fame dat's matters, it i wanna win the price and treat me colleagues to go makan .. and also prove dat there is still some "room" for the minority!.. sadly, i feel lesser and lesser frens each day when i go work, lesser and lesser motivation for work each day... should i quit? even giving my colleagues drinks i also tio fuck by "someone" and pin point? being a incharge is not a happy thing for me, more responsibility, have to ask my fren to do this and do dat, haf to be serious at work, i lost all the fun seriously.. if i joke around at work, "some ppl" will backstab.. too bias, they will also complain! if i ask my fren to do alot of things, i feel bad and they themselve might sae i changed and show more authority towards them, hais! and worse, lost of freedom! can't even find ppl to take over me for work, manager even threaten to terminate me if i dun come for work! wtF!

2006-12-12T02:59:00.000-08:00

wad a saddening nite.. weejian try his best to sing despite of the sore throat! dat zz judge - u all noe who lar, even monkey see monkey do, critise him sae if he is able to make it in the revival round, hope he can sing better! it was fucking wtf , if she is wif sore throat , see if she can sing, act like pro bt din even see her sing be4.. is nt as if she is like lee wei song, who can critise and after dat he sing the correct way out.. lucky fang zhong hua and xu huan liang understand and gif compassionate mark for the effort and the spirit weejian put in. Anyway those who came across my blog, all my fren, who i help before, care before, hope u guy can chip in some money to vote for my fren, 60 cents per call, 2 - 3 make a difference to the result, it just like sacrificing 1 plate of chicken and can help my fren in the further road rather den let those wulus win becoz of this time rd he have sore throat. Anyway my life is still good for those who wondering? hahahs.. Cynthia if u are reading my blog, remember to take medicine when u are sick!.. YOU ARE NOT MADE OF METAL .. =)

2006-12-10T06:18:00.000-08:00

hahs.. pengs .. nowaday life is beri sux esp next four days are tests day! feel like dying, dun wanna study at all; all in my mind is her, her and her! thanks zh for the talking, deeply appreciate, u enlightened me =) life has to move on, i believe a day with my existance, i will make every friend of mine happy =) maybe i cannot pleased everyone, but i will try.. and TIAN YA XIA YI is such a nice series ! love it to the max ~ it teaches me how brittle is life? how we shld cherish our life, how other country people faced such a tough life and i haf such a gd life and i still degrading my life becoz of a ger~ hais .. and of coz the movie has it's love storyline again, abt a doctor who fork out his money, pay for the expenses and the medicine, for the neighbourhood people. Of course, he had a gd gf but die in a car accident in the 1st episode! so sad, acted by gigi leung somemore, after 1st episode no more chio bu to see! in this show , it teaches wad love has no age restriction, no illness limitation and alot of barrier senario, and also, how sad/brittle a life can be. I shld cherish my everyday now , esp when my body is healthy and enjoy my everyday to the fullest =) take care .. all the dudes =) anyway i am sick for around 3 days already, thank angelia ... hehehe

2006-12-03T09:43:00.000-08:00

SY!!!... dun emo k?? hahah.. today i just make a pt to do an hr exericse! why? MORE DEN 20 ppl i noe sae me FAT! hais!.. if i dun slim down abit, no more shirt size for me, no gers wan me! hahahas.. always ppl sae wad cut down on food? dat is rubbish, get the butt down to exercise in the right way for slim down, food is heaven to me, cut down on food, might as well take knife and stab me? =) Just bought a fleshimp limited edition T shirt for 90 bucks! hahash.. spend ard 200 bucks on clothes liao and i still gg down to buy my addidas jacket and shoe tmr! ahhahas.. wad a spending spread.. this mth my pay like no pay .. hahas thxs zh for enlighten me and kelvin also hahas .. yea i tink really i am quite stupid to do dat on last sun, making big fuss over it! hais... the worse torture in life is when u trying to 4get sumthing bt instead u are getting deeper into it.. wad a crap?

2006-11-27T20:13:00.000-08:00

hais.. somehow i really understand everything.. persistence AINT EVERYTHING. I GAVE UP! , maybe i was too atttitude or wad, ya is i forced myself to landed to this situation. Sometime i realli jealous of my gd fren, REALLY to a HUGE extent. On sat nite, one of my fren who promise to come sing ktv wif us but eventually he pang seh us. However the ger dat he like was pissed coz firstly he is late as he promise to meet us, secondly he pangseh us last min, lastly he overslept on the trip to meet us on the mrt. I can see she is really pissed wif the attitude of my fren, why can't she spare some interests in me? arghs, fuck care then, i nt going to be patient and calm anymore, heck care everything, back to the old me .. thxs everyone for the chatting session , greatly appreciated for those who haf help me once twice or everytime.
Nowaday damn lot of ting to do, projects damn stress up hais.. gonna quit cathay le, nth much left for me, working there is nv my interest, the colleagues dere are nice and someone who make me stay, but now~ time for me to decide my path again ...... alot of performance coming up for me, haha gotta stand up and sing again

2006-11-26T19:05:00.000-08:00

bday passed.. hahah.. now then i realise that not everything u planned will work accordingly. Neither did i forsee i will lose to the weather! .. why the wind so strong? make all the candles cannot light up fully? =( but the sparkles is nice but also cannot light up all at the same time. Why she came home halfway while i was preparing the items? hahaha.. all so UNEXPECTED! However the cake is nice, thanks joyce and wen for the suggestion, haha she like chocolate cake and joyce and wen suggest me go paragon buy, eventually it turn out nice. =) also bought a customized bear =) hahas, a bear who wore the same shirt as me which i wore to celebrate her bday with her. Actually i really not sure how many years i can hold on and celebrate wif her her bday, but i hope at least the bear will be a replacement of me who will sing her a bday song whenever she wants without my existance. haha after the celebration, went eating wif frens! those few frens of mine, brother to the max, help me with the whole day event, without their help, i tink this event will be more messy with the cock up. Thxs qy too for being my informer and sy too though i everytime sae she trouble maker =) ahahahhahaha

2006-11-21T21:44:00.000-08:00

hais.. today wad a sucky day.. first time.. broke up promise and wake up late worse still 4get to wake her up! hais ytd conference wif fy , sy, alvin and cyn and dunno why i cannot wake up also. hais first time ever since startin from 2 weeks ago. hais! can't imagine i can 4get to wake up~ maybe is just a minor thing, bt this show how careless and not concern enough i am. Very disappointed .. maybe i tink i haf become more and more sucky nowaday, hais from today onward i gotta slp early~ and no more nite time for me, i gonna make sure i do the best i can do whenever i am till the day i tink is time to let go ....

2006-11-19T23:40:00.000-08:00

hais.. so long no blog liao.. dunno why emo abit and feel like blogging.. feel like she is getting colder and colder? why? i also dunno.. tired has always been her ways of avoiding my date .. nahs.. just heck care! .. my final year project.. dun sae leh.. terror ! have been getting more and more tired of EVERYTHING.. pls god enlighten me .. i wish to slp and wish to be emotionless! spare me from all those sorrow and heartbreaking incident. Getting nearer and nearer hahas.. hopefully it will be a pleasant surprise or hopefully is a success event? just pray for everything will be fine on friday.. no rain? no stunt from anyone.. and no cock up in my planning too =) `` all the prayers dat i send in return is just the memories dat i receive

2006-11-08T09:57:00.000-08:00

ahah on phone wif my dearest fy now!.. We are crapping again, she told me dat fir rox, but i feel wang leehom and jay rox more! and our crappy session continue... today superstar 2nd rd has ended! weejian score 32 pts which is the 2nd highest score in today round. hehe saw sy and wc there and wc's frens. hahas so happy day, saw yumei and my old frens, all my sec sch brothers and gers friend =) hehehe .. all become more and more mature for the gers, especial elizabeth ! she crap more compare to last time and yumei still the same, still kinda miss her alots but is the past, my only regrets.. anyway haha we are gd frens. This wk work 50 hours and yumei and sok bday is at this wkend bt sadly i was working and couldn't celebrate for them. SOK and YUMEI i am sry.! No worries, i will still gif u gers some surprise hopefully =) btw ytd was a sucky for esther, our new box staff, she work less den 3 days already shortage 60+ dollars, wad a misery, hais.. hopefully no more shortage for her, i prayed.......

2006-11-06T01:17:00.000-08:00

weeeEee went kbox overnite last fri, enjoyed the whole session and generous fy treat us eat 20 bucks of ben & jerry ice cream and we smuggle to kbox eat, wad a fun and the kbox staff keep peeping at us and the cookie dough ice cream damn shoik! after the whole kbox session den i realise i 4get to bring my laptop home and left at cathay, it was wtf, how can i 4get my laptop and waited for AO to come at 8.30 to open the staff office door for me. After that i reach home at ard 10.30 and went to slp. Worse still i 4get to bath and get up and bath and slp again. Not long after ard 12.30 , cathay call and ask me to return the movie express key, OMG i 4get to return key, hahah movie express open at 1+ liddat hahaha.. I went down eat wif my fren ( her ) , ahah and we went fish and co and eat. My this fren quite surprising she told me alot of things which totally shocked me. Maybe study culture and the people we social wif really affects our thinging. I bring her go eat she told me a meal is just a meal no nid to eat so expensive, she is beri exception from my all of those "ger" friend of mine who don't really fancy this kind of meals, is more on the sense of enjoyment she haf fun wif rather den the food she care =) .. anyway ya realli quite amazed and went for after dat. Anyway SUNDAY work SUX, 1 person at Movie Express, really busy the hell out of me. Roger damn funny on sun, he keep lying to angelia dat she shortage! and keep saeing i evil wan angelia shortage coz i keep asking shortage how much as i had calculated shortage of 400+ bucks! anyway gt a msg for her dat she din shortage, i was relieved, 400+ is not a small sum, she work like fuck and in the end shortage 400+ if is me i will fuck the whole cathay upside down! =)

2006-11-02T21:21:00.000-08:00

hais.. a dilemma for today ...tonite sy and cyn jio me go overnite kbox.. feel like gg but i can't go coz tmr i haf a date wif one of my fren. This date was postponed long ago and i damn wished to go out wif this fren of mine. Another thing this kbox session was a last session be4 they go attachment. Cyn told me one thing which i feel very sad, our cathay grp gonna spilt .. hais.. ya maybe bt i feel dat we shld be able to do it as we tink we haf a lot of fun memories tgt.. Going to haf my IIP presentation soon, haha very anxious afraid to not to perform up to standard. Joyce today was exceptionally not normal and she keep sae "people will change" hais, yah.. i agree dat to a great extend. This wk work ard 40+ hours hhehehehe my first time record in my greatest history, maybe work will be a gd avoid for me to let me rest awhile. Thinking too much isn't a gd thing, bt don't thing? how can i? people do haf emotion, do haf feeling .. sometime i shldn't haf bother to explain? wad a complicated me =(

Zzz .. tio scold for nth, ya i was beri anxious abt my presentation and feel like finding 1 friend to chat and end up get scolded by her, dunno why she suddenly so pissed up or wad and end up i was being the anger bag, i just wonder ..... what's on earth happen? human do haf emotions, ya is okie .. coz i tink i nowaday too tired also dunno wad the hell i am doing.. i nid a break! =)

2006-11-01T19:31:00.000-08:00

finally .. problem settle, dunno whether is a blessing in disguise or a new beginning of terror? me and wc thingy is the past.. ya.. so hope all my cathay peeps stop toking abt this hmm.. back to the old self me, quite sad eventually. Thxs cyn, sy, fy, cheryl, winnie and huiwen for talking? =) haha u gers in the past during i haf problem did tok to me and console me, really a million thxs to all of u all and angelia also, when i am bored she will also chat wif me. Somehow i realise is not abt how much u put in, is abt how much ppl willing to appreciate. If someone appreciate ya, u no nid to do anythin she will feel u are dat good! Hais and i am disappointed wif myself, always thought i can clique well and understand peeps well.. ya i am wrong! 2 person is all abt communication! i agree

Haiz.. i will just take a sometime to recover. Gotta concentrate on my project.. anyway this sat i will be going somewhere nice for dinner weEEeeEEE.. looking forward =) Not chasing any ger at the moment and no intention too, cynthia u no nid to worry for me =)Currently i am single but not available.. devoted my life for cathay and my final year project .. sry gers =)

2006-10-27T21:14:00.000-07:00

This is wad i done from http://www.drawahouse.com/takethetest/index.asp?street=ee7f364e0c5403d674ad0095b4117607, wad i haf taken at shing yeen blog. True to 80% !

You are sensitive and indecisive at times. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You love your house and family. You are a gifted artist as well. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be. You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

2006-10-27T12:37:00.000-07:00

hais wad a day, i am really at my wits! even tend to skipping lecture to accompany to maxwell rd end up scolded by my project mates, hecking care lecture and folding tickets, waking up everyday morning w/o fail, getting all the food dat she craved for and finally i am really tired, really really tired! wad sincerity, patience, perservance and romantic .. it's all shits, i am not crappy .. bt really tired! it's all abt maturity, thinking shits! nahs i shall fuck care then, 1 wk of break maybe would be a foreva break, holding on too tight is just not best soln maybe learning to let go is a kind of relieve. Feel like slping.. slp for a long period and wake up 1000 years ltr and start everything afresh. Thinking in the past dat i can really impress some1, bt in the end yah.. i am just another useless shadow among the crowd in singapore?.. HECK CARE is wad i wanan do now, WORK and DO PROJECT, filled my life fully! i really dun wan to hang on anymore... can some1 free me? sadly, if some1 really understand how i feel now? i really pity dat some1 for having the same fate as me once or presently..

2006-10-24T18:33:00.000-07:00

haha a day wif sense of achievement!! i wash the farking popper LOL.. so happy.. bt i was in a mess after washing it. Hair wif oil, whole uniform wet, pant wif popcorn bits on it and alot of craps. What is In Charge? In Charge is to do everything urself? hahaha for my case lar.. I also dunno how amalina can be a in charge and command people, when i see my fren having fun and chatting i realli somehow dunno how to open my mouth LOL.. bt is okie they are also hardworking and proactive and did help me alot, greatly appreciated =) Yesterday is really a tired and tio shoot dere. Work wif jason, shing yeen and cynthia, haha tio whack until like no chance to retaliate !! hahaha.. now having 9 am lesson, ah ching will be late again! hais.. she arh.. dunno wad to sae.. last min choing project until morning, ghlf. Luckily today i am on time and early if not is really i gd game, tutor damn strict even late for 5 mins also she record down, see her face like guan shi ying pu sha, bt end up like terrorist damn fierce, Joyce late for 24 mins and the tutor tell her " congratulation u are late! bt thxs for coming too =)" wad a sarcastic statement! hopefully is not on me ?_?

2006-10-22T04:58:00.000-07:00

hais ytd was a terrible day.. firstly saha promote me to In charge for concess for sat mon and tue, to alot of ppl, being in charge is like big fark.. to me zzz no pay increase but do alot of xtra shits and haf to leave at the last also. After dat, Dat gay andrew do stunt again, wad 1.30am must reach the carpark if not no cab for the person and he really came down and check everyone. Haha he was crapping around, trying to act as if he is very close wif us, nahs i don't gif him a damn and i walk away and sit by myself. I hope he realise that yihong is nv in the same side as him and dun try to grab any favours from me. hais.. really run out of patience and very tired especially toward some1 who u dun really understand, always thought i noe alot of frens and haf seen alot of different kind of personalities ppl but in the end i still fail to noe her, maybe or dunno.. haha anyway thxs fy and sy for the talk =) greatly appreciated!

2006-10-20T22:01:00.000-07:00

hais.. yesterday is such a turn off day! dat stupid manager andrew ong. It was the first time i do the cab list for my department, some people choose to go mia at that point of time and i over the walkie sae who want add on to the list can come and look for me. Even one of the mia come and look for me after dat and there is one 4eva mia shahul dun wan look for me or i shld sae he even din hear the news of the cab thingy. At around 1 am, we go to take the cablist, we found out that that shahul don't have his name on this list, i haf try asking andrew to add on but he farking attitude problem, sae is my problem, come on la he is the manager wad in front of other big shot sae wanna promote teamwork, team harmony, wad a disgrace to mankind! Hui wen and winnie seeing me in trouble, they wanan to go watch movie and morning take bus go home and allow that shahul to take my cab and they went to ask andrew to change, but wad he sae, he sae not okie, not allow! wad a turn off, just an assistant theatre manager wad a small shot, he dun even haf a cert and start working like wad i am to today den backstab alot of manager to get today position!.. if i am him i rather die early den working there being a faker letting everyone talk behind the back! Zzz.. Another problem is herr again!!!.. suffocating and pls let me noe, i haf alot of things to sae but cnanot sae out, sae too much might become a stress to u and in the end i am left to suffocate myself =(

2006-10-19T06:12:00.000-07:00

wEEee.. first time i been to ikea! i din realise that there is only a ikea store in a country, u cannot get 1 more ikea in a country! The journey to ikea from cck is indeed tiring especially when u get to slp at 2.30 but gotta wake up at 6.30. I run like a dog coz i nid to get down at ikea at 8 sharp and get the food and leave by 8.30 and reach her place at 9.15 coz i meeting her at 9.30 and i dun wan to be late. I keep running from LRT to MRT, from MRT to BUS and Bus to Bus. haha as wad i expected she is late again.. bt her formal wear dressing did impress me abit and i abit mesmerized by her =). Haha .. was damn piss wif the ikea restaurant, coz they sae the meatball is not in the breakfast menu and dun wan to sell me .. i was like beri piss! i came the way down, i even wan to pay more bt they refused to cook me any! and in the end i haf to buy the french toast so call the breakfast of the day at ikea. After dat i went school and meet wl and gk at jurong east mrt and we went jurong east sport complex for swimming =) damn fun and we keep stalking xiao mei mei =) and gk damn joker, wear like going to sell butt when he go swimming .. damn sexy.. hahas.. now i am just abit tired, feeling hard to breath, playing guessing game wif her.. pls spare me for once, dun let me guess anymore =(

2006-10-16T09:10:00.000-07:00

What aaa day =))) .. i woke up at 6.30 and went chinatown and buy yong dao hu.. not for myself.. bt is for her=). It's has been long since i last went chinatown, the old market renovate and i miss all the nice food dere.!!! hahas and after that i went to her hse and wait for her, she arh, i wanna gif her surprise become she gif me surprise. I gave her morning call at 7.30 and her lesson is 9, so by ard 8.30 she shld be out, so i reach her blk ard 8.15 and i gave her a 2nd call and i found out that she is still slping.. i told her i will be meeting her and then she sae she will be out at 9.15 but in the end she came out at 9.50, now den i realise that why i even i gave her morning call and she can be late too. Then she ate the yong tao hu at the coffee shop opposite her hse but unfortunately we are being told by an auntie dat if we din buy the food dere we cannot eat there? omg.. i still order drinks from the coffee shop somemore.. such a ill tenant the coffee shop cfm will close down. Sadly i was late for my IS class which suppose to start at 10 but i only managed to reach at 11. I went into the class, haven sit for 5 mins, tutor sae break for 5 mins, omg i was like ZZzzzz. My Wisp class was omg.. i din even speak more than 5 sentences, it was like yihong become "jing"hong.. i was like damn quiet. haha After that me wl spen and gk we go egame dota.. haha the game is fun and gt forfeit somemore.. i gonna see gk dance and wl club =) weEEEEEEE... i am loving it

2006-10-11T11:21:00.000-07:00

Today is such an interesting day!! =) no gers or wad so ever.. it mainly guys outing =) me weeliang, spencer and gheekai went egames play dota.. funny siah.. alot of stupid tings happen and gheekai - the feeder keep doing stunt and make me lose =( . After that we went GEYLANG. Geylang sound so wrong.. haha but we go there for food. We order frog porridge ( 19 bucks ) follow by a beef hor fan ( 15 bucks ) and it's is really damn full. After that we went down to the fruits stall for some dessert. Guess what, haha we choose durian as our dessert. We walk stalls after stalls and choose the stall that we think that the durian are nicer coz there are more ppl patronising the stall. And the durian cost us 15 bucks for 3. Spencer choose the durian himself ( act pro ) ended up only 2 can eat, it's quite a blessing .. i expect 3 cannot eat =) ahahhah then meet weejian ( OUR NEXT "JUE DUI" SUPERSTAR ) , he just send sonia home and i meet him and we manage to catch 67 and take bus home and we went ssp for another rd of food. WHOLE day of food, anyway this rd is weejian treating so i went =) .. A day of FOOD

2006-10-08T21:40:00.000-07:00

Congrats wj for entering the top 24 for the "jue dui" SUPERSTAR! .. hahah once again he do us proud. Of course, he has a gd vocal and he deserve the glory. Ytd was a bad day, caught a cold and high fever while waiting for the result to announce, it was quite piss while u are having cold and yet the host are damn stupid to keep dragging the time while they dunno that all the crowd are waiting for the results to announce. After that went home and give a call to "xiao pang" and chit chat wif her. Scare the hell out of me, she told me something unpleasant. It seem so difficult to understand about her, she keep getting herself in the world of her own not letting people to understand about her, not even her poly friends. I have try endless effort to understand her but it's not about individual effort. For friends, it take 2 hands to clap, only if both parties willing to contribute den the friendship will be establish, but if only i keep trying/ keep whacking, the "link" is not there. Hais wad a ironic thing, in 1 way i tinking that i noe alot of peeps, chat wif alot of peeps , can sae dat i can understand peeps well but in the end, i realise that only if both parties willing to contribute, if she keeps a closed mind i dun tink i can do any well too.. =(

2006-10-04T01:01:00.000-07:00

weeeEEe ytd is a happy day.. haha the day is nite. Watch Rob B Hood, omg the baby is damn cute, at dat moment i so wish to haf one? haha .. guess who watch with me? it's her hehehehe.. sy and fy keep kay siao, sit in front of us and keep playing hide and seek with us. Dunno why i feel dat she is quite affected by it? maybe i too sensitive but i tink she really dun wish to be controlled - like becoz of seeing me she like being avoided by frens .. just dunno how to express myself, if i wan to carry on i nid to ensure such matter wun happen and affect her. After movie, we went giant supermarket and shop items for cathay chalet this thursday haha as usual i was the one doing the shopping .. she arh, haha accompany me walk around and of coz she was tired not long after =) and we went bukit batok eat dinner, of coz the food sux to the max but overall is okie with her eating with me =X .. hmm now i haf sorted out, hehe i nid to be a better man, i nid to be better den wad i did now =) wished me luck

2006-10-01T11:29:00.000-07:00

hmm a very sudden news ytd - kidd is leaving.. dunno why although me and kidd not close but somehow i feel very sad for him. He is still a nice manager anyway although sometimes we lame wif each other. HE is another victim of dat ANDREW sucker.. after glen incident. He is the next target and so he is leaving this wed. We went newton circus eat, kidd order a dozen of beer and yes we drink like siao and also order alot of seafoods - stingray, wad zuk zuk, and crabs! chilli crabs .. and i eat the "claws" of the crabs, damn lotsa flesh. Alot of stupid thing happen at cathay.. ! the staff dere at nice , everyone is nice in fact! why becoz of one stupid andrew make us wanna leave cathay? now they wanna hire new staff, are they threatening us? without us cathay still can survive? can! of coz bt we also can survive without cathay! such a pathetic pay- 4.5 per hour omg.. i can easily get a job for 6.50 and above as a promoter.. talking ? nahs.. it's my specialization =X yea finally tue will a the day hehe.. movie + ???? , shopping and buying chalet bbq food =)

2006-09-27T09:53:00.000-07:00

wEEeeee watch gigolo wannabe again!!! bt with different people .. hha.. it was an enjoying one. den went to play daytona .. haha i noe she is not beri gd at it .. haha purposely let her win ltr she sae i bully again.. purposely dun wan overtake her ahahha.. bt i tink she din realise it. Surpise to see nowaday gers play daytona.. bt my skills or i shld sae the car dere sux!.. expert lap can't even get top 5 .. zzZ pai seh like siao be4 dat i still telling her dat i am gd.. after dat we went to bukit timah for dinner.. woah the place really had not been changing alot. the food still dat nice and yea i enjoy the mutton curry and sambal kangkong.. love it to the max haven been eating it for a mth!.. unlike the days during my schooling where i keep going dere to eat..!! tmr working =) those wanan eat / drink come and look for me at THE CATHAY =)

2006-09-26T13:42:00.000-07:00

hais.. i dunno whether the decision to change class izt a right one?.. to me .. grping wif joyce and fren of coz i tink my project results will be better as compare to my 06 grp members.. YA my alone contribution i tink if i able to contribute at joyce's grp will be much more effective den my 06 grp. not meaning that they are not good or wad.. just sae i feel that joyce's grp will be more comfortable and good teamwork as compare to 06 grp members. I noe missy is unhappy .. nt i dun wan to reply her the msg .. is just dat i really 4get aabt the msg dat she ask me whether did i appeal.. she was unhappy wif me when i reply her at 10pm while she send me the msg at 1pm.. YA i was wrong.. bt wad she expect? friend send msg nid to reply so fast? can't i take my time to reply my msg?.. do i even haf the right to reply the msg later?.. WE are just FRIENDS hais..

hmm.. another event happen to me.. haha i found another nice ger.. we chat along well.. get along well.. bt .. i dun really know wad she is tinking.. always nt getting near to her heart.. MAYBE really liek wad she feel.. she is those ger who tink dat time will make things happen, thing will prove everything.. maybe she really feel dat more time will really make me noe more abt her.. bt i believe she noe i am nice to her.. i treat her good too =) bt to me .. time wun really make changes.. but instead time will make u get tired of dat person as the communication will not progress .. wadeva event is keep repeating.. hais god.!!! *faint*

2006-09-20T12:01:00.000-07:00

ahhaha.. today is another day!!!.. wad a crappy me =) today went cathay and watch "gigolo wannabe" haha sound like my future job?? nahs though i am white bt definitely i nt gonna be a gigolo? come on when did u find such a handsome gigolo like me in singapore? =) after dat we meet cw, sy , wc, vic, cyn and xy go supper at newton !! omg there the food sux totally bt luckily eat wif a bunch of crappers den the food taste nicer.

yeah!! cathay chalet coming soon at aloha changi from 4 - 6 of oct =).. it will be a fun one coz i organise one.. hehehe weee.. currently my favourite song of the month is "wo hai neng ai shui" ya .. nowaday meet a ger who is fun, and yes her smile brightens up my day and i long to find her chat every moment.. she is a funny ger who always nv fail to smile, haf a beri nice temper and her character of coz.. top of the top hmm i will slowly get to know her more and see if we are suitable anot .. hahaha.. start my courting planning once again

2006-09-18T10:09:00.000-07:00

omg he sux!.. can't believe he still dere to laugh and joke ard during glen's farewell party.. such a turn off when i see him there.. feel so irritate and disgrace working wif him especially had him such a fucking supervisor.. HE just simply jealous when he scold the staffs and glen always try to protect us coz he simply noe he is unreasonable and often PMS! .. just becoz glen is a nice person... he take advantage and bully him and now glen is gone! bt eventually wad he get? nth! roger is promoted and not him to replace glen!.. wad a sore loser.. end up wif nth bt being anti by all the ppl in cathay.. some in the dark bt ppl like me yes i will show him right on his face.. sack me? haha i dun even care .. 4.50 per hrs? earning shit pay and now glen is gone.. dat place indeed like hell.. wif more fucking new rules inplement by this sissy.. he think he farking big butt can make all the decision dere.. come on he 4got abt miss evelyn!!! who will own him like dog.. hais.. after the farewell we went for ktv .. once again until morning.. ahha and me cyn yihao wc and sy we talk abt guys and gers perception of relationship and bgr stuffs lOL.. nahs.. they wun change the impression of some gers.. no diff.. i believe i found one.. bt yet to be certifite =)

2006-09-18T10:00:00.000-07:00

why is glen leaving?? this news pop out nt beri long and it was announce 2 wks ago and ytd is his farewell party.. he is a nice manager in fact the best at cathay and we all regard him as a fren, a true fren coz he din even show us those kinda bossy attitude.. when we make mistake, he will talk nicely to us, when we in the process of getting some food, he pretend din see.. when we wanan get free movie tickets, he will be dere allowing us to watch free movies.. i can sae he really treat every employee well and care for all employee wellfare.. when mistreatment take place .. he is always the one who stand at our side!! everyone is sad really.. EVERYONE EXCEPT A FUCKER.. a FUCKER who i classified as a 100% CB FUCKER.. he backstab him to the upper heads, saying glen is making use of alot of company fund, treating employee too leniently, nv go according to rules, bt what the fuck! wad abt dat FUCKER? he stole adidas voucher, sissy attitude, think himself has a gd chest? keep showing his breast? omg shit him! respect him? nahs.. he will nv gain any gd words from me.. or i shld sae i wun even tok to him from this moment onward!.. i wun tok to someone who is so fake.. ytd i gave huiwen a porky and fucking him saw it.. and he come over to me and pull me out and gave me a fuck scolding and telling me all sorts of craps and den he went to find huiwen and guess wad he sae to huiwen? he sae if u wan eat next time u tell me i will treat u.. wtf!

2006-09-09T20:19:00.000-07:00

weeeEE.. had an enjoyable nite working at cathay ytd.. haha.. ya of coz.. wanching is dere.. see her ma chiam see laughing buddha.. she is the only one in cathay can make my laugh at least an hour non stop.. really she is damn joker i admit that.. hha.. and sheenying.. keep bullying me.. haha anyway i enjoyed the bully session by her.. this show how cheap i am =X.. and thxs to angelia who leave alot of scars on my hand saeing that this will let me think of her.. haha sound kinda like wad zhao min say to zhang wu ji .. =) angelia she is damn fierce .. her physcial abuse on me sometimes really get out of hand bt.. she is very funny and i manage to keep cool everytime she torture me.. =)

Although at cathay the pay sux.. i enjoy every moment there.. fun and interesting .. and fuck 143.. make me walk 1 big round to the cathay.. zzz shitty bus and jay album is out .. love bai she feng che and tui hao.. i gonna sing this 2 songs at cathay.. - training in progress -
Girlfriend 1st criteria - able to sing.. =) if u think u haf one of this talent.. pls call 94523578 for audition

2006-09-01T11:20:00.000-07:00

Wed - hehe.. had a day at cine kbox wif sheenying, wanching, fengyi, cynthia and victor.. omg.. dun see cynthia always gif dat kind of innocent and cutie look.. small size bt can really sing hahaha.. shocked =) as usual.. fengyi were all time FIR choingster.. she manage to choing alot of FIR song.. while wan ching ( hamburg ) she arh.. run here and dere and sing.. =) and sheenying.. business woman.. alot of calls whole day and me and victor were gaying dere ..

Thur - Dinner with Jane =) omg.. haven't met her for mths!!!!.. damn crazy and miss her.. yea i will work hard for superstar =) though i noe i wun go far? and nt for the fame.. is for the passion =)

hahahah wad a day.. it was a damn tiring day at cathay.. !!! i meet an agent.. he jio me go work at imm as sales promoter for UOB =) 6.50 per hour, if work longer will get pay increment to 7.50? ahha shoik siah compare to cathay pay.. work like siao bt sucking pay.. bt 1 thing.. cathay colleagues are nice and alot of chio bu dere.. wad abt IMM? .. if i go dere ltr i will be bored to death!!!!!... i nid to find some friends to work wif me if nt i will be crazy!.. hahaha.. spencer and weeliang come down and visit me...!! and also arnold and family .. ahha..

2006-08-17T09:24:00.000-07:00

hhaha.. it's weejian's bday today!! his gf best liao.. surprise bday party for him at hardrock cafe and gather everyone of us there, me, kaihong, da quan, jeff, jason, kervin, hamster, kenneth, hocksoon and weiqi .. =) quite a superb effort.. and a bday from fullerton hotel.. yummy yummy chocolate fudge =) nt my favourite anyway.. omg! the steak was nice.. medium well =) my all time favourite but the vegetables sux to the max..

haha we crap alot of super jokes, wad r gear = racing gear.. wad tony the president zzz.. all sort of childhood riddles =) and then we went egames dota. Sian.. 2 more days to itlg exams.. wad a pua sian.! i haven study much and me and joyce discussing about the bbq after the exam instead of discussing the ITLG exams! .. omg can anyone pls wake me up? =) k lar.. dun haf the mood to blog so much.. take care all my friends and good luck =)

2006-08-14T10:09:00.000-07:00

hais.. today really not in the mood for anythin.. i already let go everything.. nth to sae already..I WAKE UP LIAOS.. heheh xinzi, yilee, zhanhong, dq, wl and spencer!!! =) feel so happy .. bt this happiness does not last long till my fren jio me go play dota.. FUCK LAG.. and kervin keep kp me... kp me from the game start till the game ended.. farking hell how will i noe anythin.. i haf 2 second of delay.. by the time i noe.. my character is dead and i haf to bear the lag and continue to play and listen to him keep nagging and scolding me.. !! totally turn off.. if wanna play owning den go play wif those wcg gd clan.. go join them lar.. dun find fren play.. i just play it for fun.. regardless of winning and lousing.. and i keep getting fuck in the game.. is not i keep dying.. i am lag and i also dunno wad i am playing.. come on lors.. waste my time and MY MOOD is really beri FUCK up.. haiya.. dunno how to play wif them.. game tio fuck up.. life tio fuck up.. project also tio fuck up.. hais.. pls enlighten me someone =(

2006-08-13T07:24:00.000-07:00

wad a day.. movie and then followed by mahjong at my grandma hse.. haha watch a movie wif my fren.. nt beri nice bt at least haf the company.. again tio last min pang seh.. the hurt is nt as bad as the times happen be4.. really get used to it.. even if she called and tell me dat she cannot make it .. "hmm .. expected.. how much sweet talk before hand in the end .. it's really nth" as the frequency increases.. it really become numb! the feeling is really numb.. a body without a soul.. haha best describe me right at the moment.. sometime raising value is one thing, everyone has a value.. bt there is a limit to anything.. quite a foolish of me to keep hanging on.. waitin for the impossible.. xinzi u are right, " gd luck to me until i wake up " .. ya guess i realli nid to wake up.. Spencer " yihong i dunno whether u are a love idiot or u are really brainless " .. ya maybe at this moment i am still foolish.. bt tell u guys.. wad i finally realise is.. i am really tired! tired of competing, contributing 150%.. and the other party who give u hope, bt she is only contributing 5% and raising her value like european share.. everyday top volume .. top gainer.. raise at least 1 bucks per day.. haha to us we tink 1 buck beri little, to the shares.. hahaha.. wanan noe more? go teletext, channel 5 , press 306 and u can check =)

2006-08-11T11:04:00.000-07:00

hmm .. nice outing today.. mache followed by esplanade walk.. hahas.. running fast along the suntec to marina area isn't dat fun at all.. i din even get to eat full and rush to get the firework and gave her a vid call since she wanna see.. bt eventually the firework finish and i end up nth.. most sian is she sae abt minus pt.. getting tired plus pt and minus pt.. competiting wif other guys.. which she mention everyone treat her so gd somemore.. i really dunno wad can i do.. maybe i tink let her with those guys is really a better choice.. 2 years of knowing her.. i tink wadeva i did is really to the max .. i really cannot tink of anythin to do to make her fancy during this 2 wks.. maybe i tink i will just do nth? .. or maybe i go for the wrong ger? .. xinzi maybe u are rite.. i told u i can tahan i can hold bt u sae no matter how hard u perservere .. u contribute 120% she contribute 10% is still a endless chase.. she keep 10km/h i also nid to chase 10km/h and if there are ppl running along wif me.. i nid to compete with them.. wad for make myself so worthless? a piece of jade degrade to a small piece of dirt? .. maybe dat's wad called love is blind.. maybe my value really worthless? .. or maybe the right one is nt dere yet to realise my existence.. ? i wonder...... i really dun bother much nowaday.. yihong is yihong.. sing well, talk well, treat her well.. end up is just a one person effort.. if she dun appreciate.. yihong is just another ordinary yihong.....

2006-08-10T08:30:00.000-07:00

hais.. my ex called me just now.. and told me i neglect her? omg .. duno wad haf i done wrong again.. she told me wad ask me go kbox nowaday i like nt free.. call me chat " xing shi " i also like bo chap much.. come on! i haf a ger who i like .. can i still act like as if we are tgt.. gif u all my time? wad if the ger i like she noe i was chatting/consoling my EX? omg she will just think haiya.. yihong forever gers around?.. no way! i gonna put a stop to all this nonsense.. Wad i told my EX is dat i will still treat her as fren, my fren is yes i will chat wif u bt not calling u always and nt everytime u call i not free i also entertain u! .. no more buying breakfsat or go ur hse eat breakfast wif u in the morning, not when u are free u ask me come out i will go! come on lors.. wad if the ger i like see i am wif a ger going out? dating? .. i dun wish to be called a flirt! i will still treat ger i like be4 as fren no matter of we are finish or she reject me etc, but i must haf my own image as well.. if we are nt tgt den dun expect me to treat u gd, i cannot possibily treat every gers dat well.. den the ger i liek where gt security, i dun care if she gt go out wif other guys or wad.. me, myself haf to be responsible for my own actions.

ya tonite i confess everything to her.. yes she told me she sae gif her some time mean still gt chance, ya i agree dat to a certain extend. if she really thinks that wadeva nice things i said is all about sweet talk? i really haf nth to sae anymore coz all those are really from the bottom of my heart! i mean dat to every guys, the ger he like is always the most beautiful.. any other ger is just nth in the eyes of their. She told me gif her time again.. hais izt a prolong of rejection period? or a closer step toward a beginning of me & her? i wonders...

2006-08-09T08:19:00.000-07:00

hais.. wad a zz national day performance.. perform for the sake of promise i gave to pual chang.. haha i din even go rehearsal and they strike me out of the ye lai xiang song.. hehe.. act "dua pai" .. bo bian.. i have stomach flu.. and worse thing is she is nt dere and i also dun haf solo song cannot dedicate to her.. WHY i so serious in dedication.. as many of the people who noe me, most of them noe i haf alot of gerfriend around.. so to make it clear to everyone dat she is the one ! ya i tink this is quite obvious when i mention her in my dedication - specially for her. I dun wan her to tink so much especially considering the fact dat i may not be serious or she will be insecure or wad.. however i tink she quite not very smart.. wun get it if i dun mention it to her.. well .. =(

have a fun nite at weeliang' hse.. ahha yah i was a big winner once again .. and i spend the nite helping her to do her spss thingy.. not only dat i wanna prove to her my love and also i wanna share her burden and bring colours into her life.. hais tmr presentation for marketing .. yawn boring day dunno wad the results will be like? hmms...

2006-08-07T07:45:00.000-07:00

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this song really express out my feelings for her.. why i choose her? this question pop into my mind at this very moment.. haha maybe just dat she is the only ger dat i feel so comfortable wif her company, ppl always feel my existance as a kinda of joking session.. bt who can gif provide me this ? only her.. and this is why i choose her.. sumtimes nt becoz of the beauty coz beauty wun last, not becoz of character as she can fake it out.. bt the chemistry and the moment when both of us come together .. i feel really beri light and happy wif her, but maybe she dun really get wad i mean nowaday and leave me in the lurch but i will still be holding on .. on this very tiring journey walking nearer and deeper into ur heart =)

2006-08-04T10:26:00.000-07:00

today is a happy nite for everyone in my grp of fren.. weejian - the first npidol in np history! .. i feel happy for him too.. everyone is happy bt sadly not for me - a man without his soul.. i knew it and tell one of my fren dat she definitely last min will cancel.. and rite i guess it correctly.. Seriously i am at my wits towards her.. Come on.. for wad i haf did i tink is really much enuff to win other gers' heart and the sincerity and time i put in. Fark it .. and fark myself.. for being a love saint.. wad believe time will prove everything? believe being true to her will gain sumthin.. omg i am really a fool man' She is like treating me like a bear, happy come and look for me and show me warmth, nt in the mood throw me into the dustbin.. nah i am just like a time subsitute for her, she gt time nth to do, ask me to chat wif her, wait for her do project.. and foolish i am to wait for her ytd from 11 - 3.45 am just to help her check her powerpoint and today become such like a zombie going to school for persentation. She really dunno how to appreciate, really DONT, sumtimes i really tink of giving up.. bt i shldn't take this love so lightly, i am a man, i shld learn to face defeat. bt i really treat her damn well, and nt as if i am damn ugly or wad ! arh.. 3 more days to go and i will fark myself up with i ................................

2006-08-02T08:39:00.000-07:00

stupid national day celebration rehearsal in school !!! practice ye lai xiang for so long end up the music producer sae dun sae just becoz he wanna get the thing done asap! there are some fault wif the song and he just simply sae get over wif it and get the simplest way out.. !! and tell us dun sing .. farking waste of my time..!

Hais she seem to be colder to me when she noe i like her? is she playing hard to catch or she really dun like me and wanna avoid me? nahs.. if really i tink i will just go for another time.. no more the serious yihong anymore.. when i always serious wif her .. she play wif my feelings.. i gave my heart to her .. she treat me like dirt.. sometimes i really dunno wad to do.. i am much better den her ex.. treat her much better den her ex .. end up i get nth.? wad farking treat gers gd.. treat them wif all ur heart .. end up get is being treat like dirt by them! seriously speaking i dunno whether am i going for the wrong ger.. if yes god pls guide me along.. i will just make my last try.. if she bo chap den i will 4eva ignore her and no more! i wun see her anymore and i dun wish to triggle back my feelings.. i will just be back the "playful" me =X

2006-07-31T08:25:00.000-07:00

A continue

Ya 8 of aug will be the last day of my performance.. Firstly i nt trying to flaunt.. i did really get more gers frens in singing.. and i really dun wish and let dat "some1" realise that i am actually dat insecure to be with. today at the lecturer day gt gers ask me for ktv etc ya and i really heck care seriously.. ever since i make up my mind for her.. ya i really go for it.. i really dun wish her to have the impression dat i was doing it for myself.. i make my stand clear liao by the dedication! and i hope she realise =) i dunno whether the outcome will be a good one? bt i really appreciate the moment she spend wif me.. here and then, now and maybe in the future.. singing and her .. i will take her more.. haha singing is just my passion bt she is my life =).. wad's more to conclude? hahahaha nth liaos.. i dun wan to tell her actually dere is such thing going on .. coz i scare will backfire and she will think i flirting ard whereas i am not.. i today keep myself to my frens only.. i dun wna gif ppl impression i haf alot of gers friend around ! Seriously i already lost every confidence i haf.. ever since she broken my heart twice .. i really did my best for the past 2 years really i tink i put in enough effort .. bt ........................................

2006-07-31T08:02:00.000-07:00

hahahahahha today is the lecturer day!!!.. yes indeed i enjoy today session.. Really deep within my heart!! Actually i really dun take this performance a better for myself.. I make it purposely just for her.. bt i din tink she will realise if i dun tell her my intention. Frankly speaking in the past yes i did.. i just those star event to gain fame and and to sing =) bt today is merely for her, i can't really think of anyway to express my feelings for her in a very romantic? way hahaha.. BY including her in my priority in the dedication i tink this is the most ideal "way" i can tink of. Firstly to make sure dat she is the one! and none other else.. all the ppl who went there noe ya .. this guy by the name of yihong is already gt some1 else in mind! =) Secondly, i was surprise the ba society send a rep give me flowers and eventually i gave the flowers to some1 =) ( the person i dedicate to ) They give me the flowers is to thxs me for singing.. actually my intention is nt to help them, is to sing for her, let her noe wad i really feel, this 2 songs wen rou and hui dao guo qu, if she hear the lyrics carefully in wen rou ( bu zhi dao bu ming liao bu xiang yao wei she mo wo de xin, ming ming shi xiang kao jing que gu dan dao li ming) meaning everytime i wanan get close to her bt eventually we still nt meant to be tgt =( , in hui dao guo qu ( xiang kan ni kan de shi jie, xiang zai ni meng de hua mian) ya .. i always long to be wif her, ever in her dreams, every moment i wanna let her become the most fortunate one!

2006-07-30T10:48:00.000-07:00

Life is always filled with dismay.. somethings also happen when u least expected it to be.. though you have plans for it. Hmm sound beri chim.. anyway losing spread this mth.. mahjong keep lousing .. guess i have to spend more love with my hong zhong, bai ban, fa chai instead of going for a ger? hahas.. well i heard from 933 today which lin zhi sae wad "gt love gamble 90% lose" well it's really quite true for me. That time i went elisha hse play with her brother etc, everytime is i win 10 bucks or 90% winning rate there bt every since i make up my mind to go for her.. my luck in gamble drop drastically =( today go my grandma hse also lose mahjong .. guess i have to stop gambling liao!

"her" today come and click and me and chatted with me and ask me how's my life nowaday.. and then i send her the link of the itlg podcast and she said she still like my voice -.-" is still as good as last time in fact better i also dunno how she came to this conclusion where i sing the podcast wif my throat sore.. maybe she nid some hearing aid ? =) but i tink i already made up my mind.. a tired her that don't understand me but with a angel character , or a blessing her that i enjoy being with her with all the laughters around but don't really seem to appreciate me at all ! .. hais.. life is always liddat.. =(

2006-07-27T07:42:00.000-07:00

Today is a sucking day for me.. hais.. wtf my parent really sux to a certain extend. I feel so disgusted today.. like penniless ppl going around wif no money.. wtf why my parent controlling my money like shit!.. i am 19 years old.. fark damn big liao.. In the past if i haf no money i die also wun go out wif my frens even GIRLFRIEND! .. come on' though joyce and frens din really bother abt the money and they wanna treat me and i sae i enjoy being a "small white face"but in my deepest soul i hate it.. like i only wan to treat gers i nv liek to be treat by them.. maybe is just my mentality coz i am grew up with this kind of friends!

Hot of cold? i also dunno .. "her" msg me ask me go out for dinner.. guess wad i politely decline her.. maybe really time to do some soul searching .. or maybe i din like her dat much and miss her dat siao? .. or maybe is another her - cat who making me feel more comfortable with her around even without "her" existance? merely is my love for her merely just a fog.. nah.. it's getting more and more complicated.. Cat is nice bt i dun tink i will for her.. nahs.. maybe just for the time being.. i already being beaten till i dunno wad to sae by cat.. i can proudly sae i did lots for cat bt it's not abt effort dat counts .. love this kind of thing.. nah i still nid time to understand..

My 2nd last singing performance 31 july lecturer day

2006-07-25T10:19:00.000-07:00

MIXED feelings! .. omg till now i still have faced this shit? .. why? izzit i see her lesser often? .. hais.. maybe the problem lies with me.. the longer it get the lesser it became! or i think maybe we are not meant to be? in the first place where my fren like her and i gave up the idea i noe fate is leading me drift further and further with her.. and now fate let me noe this ger who makes me happy .. makes me comfortable with her existance which put me into mixed feelings!.. nah i really hope to clear up my thought but hard.. both are good gers but i really dunno who i like more?.. maybe i will sorts out 1 soon and go for it or maybe i will go china shave hair and become monk.. tired of getting in love and end up being a fool in this game of love...

Anyway nice outing today wif joyce missy weeliang sam yy bifang .. haha .. a shopping day at orchard is definitely not bad.. haha .. and heard from joyce dat weeliang buy a shirt becoz wendy liek? hahahahhaahahahhah another love story.. hais.. life is just like a story books, everyone revolving around events, torturing by this word called love, some benefit and enjoy the sweetness of it while some like me withstanding the torments dat shall fall on me! =(

2006-07-24T10:23:00.000-07:00

Hais.. she had a bad day wif her bro.. quarreling wif her brother as her bro insulted her and sae she mugged to get gd result and she is stupid enuff to waste so much time on studying.. hmm ya i did console her and my effort is nontheless fruitless. I told her if she keep listening to what ppl sae about her, she will be upset. In this case .. she study to get gd results, though she mugged but in the end she achieve wad she wants, she make use of her parents money wisely so she no nid to bother dat much of wad her bro really sae. In the end she rebutted me and sae why i change myself to suit the ger i currently like ( which is her ) and she sae i wun be happy because i change for others. Ya what she sae is maybe right if i dun like her, if she wan me to become a more security person where i am not, will i be happy? if i dun change and i still remain liddat she dun wan me will i be happy? i wun be happy therefore in the process of changing i am happy coz i found a better me and yet to suit her or maybe not. But in her case, she change or din change no difference.

hais trouble me`` maybe wad joyce sae is right, love should not be tired.. really changing myself and to let her noe the change me is really hard.. when she will get to know.. how much i haf sacrifices for her bet she wouldn't know wouldn't care

2006-07-18T07:35:00.000-07:00

To click on her or not to click? .. freaking me for having this kind of dilemma.. haha.. click on her and chat afraid disturbing her after her long day of work? bt not to click on her.. my heart telling me not to do.. eventually i stare at her nick for 15 minuters scroll up and down of my msn toolbar .. trying to focus on other ppl nick instead of hers? .. even resort to game.. Actually is really damn hard for me to chat with her nowaday.. i dun dare to make phone calls to her, hoping that will give her more time to slp instead of crapping with me.. conversation between me and her is like getting lesser and lesser eventually once a week? .. hmm bt i strongly believe dat this will not stop me from struggling .. even i enjoy this process.. is not much abt struggling.. is more about loving in a more persistence way. I also duno how long this motivation can keep me going.. just hope dat one day she willl realise dat i am nt the past .. i am the new me.. a present me to suits her more and a better me that will give her more confidence to give me a chance to get closer to her.. dat's all i hope.. My fren u noe who rite .. ask me to give up but seriously i tink of it .. ya i get wad u mean? .. but if i give up rite now.. my past efforts will be fruitless.. it's nt so much about the outcome pleasant anot .. is about the experience.. the process of really spending effort wholeheartly for someone.. I really enjoy this process maybe will turn out to be a tiring and no outcome .. but sincerely thank you god for giving me this beautiful memories =)

2006-07-14T18:21:00.000-07:00

At the steamboat session, with the company of Joyce, Missy, Liang, Sam, Mat, Bifang, Karen, Chaifong and wen, it was quite a success. Although in my heart there is always the flashback of the sad memories in the morning but I still continue with the steamboat. Missy and Joyce had try to crap with me to get me involved but I concentrate on my food cuz I really quite sian and abit no mood. To put up a nice show .. ya I smile and crap abit.. actually not really to give Joyce’s face but I think she deserve it as this is her bday and I did spend quite some effort in getting everyone there so I think I should did my part to entertain everyone.

Unfortunately, Missy call me to pluck prawn shells for her.!! More pek chek.. remind me of her again.. the first time I pluck prawn shells for. Still remember 1 year back we go marina eat together where we cook the prawns and I peel for her. And then I rejected missy invitation to peel prawn shells and I continue to enjoy my dinner. At about 9, joyce and missy seem to be rushing, hmm actually I haven eat finish but seeing joyce eager face to get her more presents, haha.. I stopped and left with a ½ filled stomach. ( actually I think I have eaten quite a lot )

The gers went home and the guys ( me mat sam and chia ) we go lan game once again!.. haha despite the lost in the noon. +.+

`` Another day for u

2006-07-14T18:20:00.000-07:00

Total turnoff..

Hais.. she msged me 8,30 in the morning . omg. I was so happy when I see her msg!! she told me she gonna meet me, I was damn happy. It was like striking a lottery. Can’t believe it when she sae she gonna meet me and last week she said she not gonna meet me. It was really like the end of the world for me never did I feel so. But the happiness did not last long and she came with another msg telling me she will be meeting her mum for dinner and will not be meeting me. OMG! Faint on the spot. It was Joyce’s bday neither do I wan to spoil the occasion and I tell myself “ YIHONG, u can do it” in front of the mirror and manage to hypothesis myself. Yet I went school and celebrate for the sales management class.

2006-07-06T10:58:00.000-07:00

My Blog - A new beginning for me

2006-07-06T10:55:00.000-07:00

SPENDING my nite chatting with joyce.. hahahahahahhahaha

tonite i am beri elmo.. coz she dun wanna meet me.. izt the end? or izt a new beginning? .. no one know.. nt even myself.. i was dread tired of her.. I wanna tell her how i really feel bt i just can't.. she wun believe me.. really she wun!!!.. life is just liddat.. however i will continue, i wouldn't stop becoz of this instead i will carry on and perserve =) loving her every moment